Understand

You had me with a hello
you left me with no goodbye though
Abandoned in this cold home
left me with memories of the good times
I want to know why
because I never could understand
I try to keep it together
because I thought we were forever
I was hoping I could get a helping hand
to make me firmly understand
why I was left alone
why I'm alone in this dark home
cold without your warmth
dead like a fetal still birth
the reasons didn't add up
how did we manage to fuck this up
give me a helping hand
so I may be able to firmly understand
because right now I'm so confused
I feel like Ive been used

Buried Dead pt 3

I commit to understand everything in between 
tender sin between the good and the mean 
suffocating ominous presence in the sheets 
wondering mind careful not to defeat 
the human flaw that is me 
the human pawn that I am to be 
created from the seed of the shadow man 
enriched with the madness of a lesser plan 
trained to the arts of darkness of the fallen 
trained to watch human suffering crawling 
no feelings, no power without dreams 
no sedation of any kind I am a machine 

Learning facts from fiction 
this world is a big contradiction 
so unnecessary is life to everything 
so easily revealed to the world of being 
this human stench is a reflection of self 
a trouble addiction of mutilation to oneself 
I await hell as I free myself from oppression 
and liberate myself through this expression 

Autumn Queen

I take my rightful place on my throne

Heart made from the unholy stone

I have been like a vulture to the queen

Never before seen

A disguised imposter at the queen's masquerade

Her vision began to fade

I took my knife to her heart

And watched her kingdom torn apart

 My Psycho-dramas freed to plunder

Her heart was torn asunder

Laughing at the pitiful sight

She lost her final fight

I took my place on the throne

That mighty skies turned pitch black

She was not ready for my brutal attack

She slit her wrists to end it all

I was waiting all autumn for her fall

Blood staining the night air

I killed all her heirs

I am on top of the world I've never seen

I killed the feeble queen

I took my place upon the throne

And watched her being overthrown

As the autumn season became undone

Brittle

I come across like a brittle baby
Hit the right spot and I break apart
Stick me in the cracks of your heart
And ill come alive again...maybe

I don't give a fuck
I don't give a fuck
I don't give a shit
About what you gott say

Push my face in the dirt
Smash me hard make me hurt
Tell me its what I deserve
I'm just a parasite willing to serve

I don't care
I don't care
I don't give a shit
About what I need to do

I'm yours anyhow so fuck it
I don't swallow I just suck it
Your fascination is growing wearily
Looking for something more

Maybe I like it
Maybe I like it
Maybe I just don't care
About the shit you fuckin do

Dead battery is love lost and left to die

Our love is a dead battery
Nothing left to power our drive
Leaving us in the middle of nowhere
And you just don't seem to care

My murdered heart have a tv interview
Said you molested it every night
Said that you started all kind of fights
Left it black and so blue

I gave a piece of me to everyone in town
Trying to tie  myself down
I never could I never tried hard enough
I always tried with shards of steel
As bright as the lights above
But the dead battery couldn't support life
So withering on the edge of defeat
My blood lead next to my knife
And it was the most perfect thing
Otherwise I would have nothing

Our love ran on its last course
Dying on the last bit of life
Everything we had was mine
But you stole it every single time
Leaving me wondering how this happened
Frame after frame of memories left inside
Died with the battery left outside
Running on nothing but hurt
You left me on the passenger side

Our love is a dead battery
With nothing left to care about
A hunk of shit with no feelings or drive
Lost to the nothingness inside
Parked and left for dead
Abandoned without an ounce of regret
Left in the middle of nowhere
Without you I don't seem to care