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nothing seems to be conherent anymore. My thoughts are clouded by some dark force. The pills arent helping. The thereapy only acts as a bandaid, but it comes soggy and loose under the weight of my tears. I need to learn how to push through this time. Ive been running and falling down too much. Have I lost hope in myself again?


I need a hug that will keep me safe. I need love that will keep me warm. I need a life that will let me live. I need...so much...but it feels likes I cant have it all

life and lust

hey baby here's a heart attack
sneak attack to your soul
hey baby here's a sneak attack
a look back to your soul
eyes that tell lies
lips the look like life
sucking on my lips
sucking my life out
is this what lust is about
finding loves whereabouts
locked secrets in my hands
pick the right one and you'll explode
implode from the satisfying way i suck
down I go, into the forest of gods
standing tall i take hold
gripping on the edge letting go
eyes rolled back and lust is formed
erupting and gushing souls
one first then the next one goes
sweat buds dripping down our backs
tongues dancing to and tho
evolution of life and love

mask

so I need to stop hiding behind this mask I've created, grow up and trap the beast replicating, burn them at the stake, stop myself from being fake. fuck the world i say, but really i want a brighter day, you see me, but don't really see....the real man behind the mask, the man hiding from his past, trying to out last the world as it burns, hoping someday the light will return, but for now here's this task, next time you ask me how I am, really ask me hows the man behind the mask.

Wealth

so one day I was just taking a little night walk and this poem popped into my head....I think it was suppose to be in a form of a rap song or some shit..idk...here it is for all you 2 readers

Theres a couple things I don't need
cars, money, and bitches
id rather be digging ditches
drive around in my Nissan sentra
read the news be all like extra extra!
whats in today's agenda
chill in bed, watch tv, jerk off
be bad ass like lara croft
dress backwards like criss cross
jump jump!
lets get naked and hump hump!
then grab my dick and pump pump!
I don't need the fancy shit in my life
nor do I need children and a wife
I'd rather be poor as fuck
as long as I get my dick sucked
theres material wealth and real wealth
you don't know the hand I've been dealt
so suck my dick and take a hint
I don't need any of your shit
All I need is myself