ok so I lied...

So I said that I was going to blog daily, but I just haven't had time to go onto my computer; so I'm going to write whenever I want. Its not like I have anyone reading this since I haven't told anyone about this blog. I don't really plan to tell anyone anyhow because I might start writing about them and well......sometimes people don't like being talked about when they are making someone miserable, or it looks like they are being an asshole, which most of the time its that case with me. Well it seems that I'm coming to the breaking point. My emotions are starting to fill the cup inside me and its starting to overfill. I need a good stress reliever to take care of that. Even if i had a good stress reliever as soon as I'm done with it, the stress will just return. I've only momentarily runaway from the problem but I always go back to it. So it is my life, a giant stress ball of madness and despair. Despair that I give myself, but despair nonetheless. I don't know, maybe I'm just born to be this way, maybe its school, maybe its work, maybe its all the people I deal with everyday...I just don't know. I need to finish my next semester and then go on a good vacation. Maybe I'll finally go to New York or San Francisco; I've always wanted to go there. Life is short and I need to enjoy it while i can still walk on my own power. I need to do this....soon...before...I break down