Smile part 2

Two dates and I'm still smiling. I hope this last for a while.

Smile

I like it when I have a smile on my face. So far he brings one whenever I get a message from him. Good times are happening to me and Damn I think I deserve it.

"Why so serious? Let's put a smile I'm that face" -The Joker

Muneca

Lingering traces of your touch

sweeping emotions taking me down 

on the ledge getting talked down 

I'm not suicidal just feeling alone

 i still smell you in my car

it brings a smile to my face knowing your not far

still next to me watching over me 

you're not earth bound but still heart bound

i want to hold you again

i want to kiss you again

i want to feel you in my arms again

take away all the shit I feel that day

lick my salty tears away

the look in your big brown eyes say everything will be okay

I always believed you

to me you were more than just a dog

you were my best friend

to the very sad end

Drunk mess

I'm drunk now...just wanted you to know.Chris since yore probably the only guy who reads this Shit of a blog....and if you're not Chris....Omg thank you for reading this stupid blog...lol.....

I'm in a state of dreaming...

So...an update

So I've been neglecting this blog again. The reason is that I really never have anything to say. Fuck that the real truth is that I'm just too stubborn and paranoid to write down anything on this blog. I still fight with myself about sharing parts of me to strangers. It's even worse when I need to share with people I actually know.

I guess the biggest thing is that my sister had her baby finally! After nine months of waiting I finally got to hold my first niece in my arms. Her name is Mia, and she's seriously the best looking baby in the world, but of course I'm bias because she's my niece lol.

My therapist told me that I should write a letter to my sister telling her thank you for always being there for me. For being the only person I truly can trust. The one person in my family that accepts me for who I am. This fat fucked up weirdo...she shows me unconditional love...I really need to start on that letter..I just don't know what to write lol. I'm to write it and hand deliver it to her, I can't mail it to her which sucks lol. I know I'm going to get all emotional and cry as a baby when I write it. Hell o cried for the first time in months at my therapy session when I started talking about her. I love her so much...

There's probably more going on but thats the big things that are going on. Since I'm such a comment whore and I like attention...comment...share or whatever people do with blogs.

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