useless

I feel so useless.
I feel so invisible
No one cares
No one hears
My cries are silent
My tears have gone dry
I sit crossed legged
Razor blade in hand
Hacking at my flesh
One cut for every sin
Believe me I have many

Is this real?
Whats the word
Whats the deal
Wheres the big thrill 
I was promised
The smile that was suppose to be the longest
The man who was suppose to  be the strongest
There is just this shell of a man
A cheap brand
A one man band
Sad to the core
And so fucking poor
A whore for anxiety and depression