Im so tired of feeling tired. I just want to feel well
again. I just want to be happy and whatever normal was. I hate waking up every
morning feeling like my stomach wants to explode. I hate every day that I
fucking exist with this damn blog clot and this blood thinner. Im so fucking
depressed and anxious everyday. Its starting to become a struggle to get out of
bed every morning. I just lay there and wonder whats the fucking point of it
all. What is the point of it all? Do I just go to work and come home to rest. I
hate that im pushing my friends away from me. Im just in the right state of
mind to be around them. In a way Im
trying to save them from what I feel. I know its healthy to do that, in fact I
should hang out with them even more so that I could feel good. I just cant, I
feel like every time I do hang out with them im just lying to myself and to
them. Im there physically, but mentally and emotionally im not. Im just so damn
tired of everything. I just want to scream!!! I just want to punch someone, stab
something, rip something apart. I really need to find a healthier way of
releasing my anger and frustration.
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