Palm Reading

I recently got my palm read at a festival. I don't know if palm reading, tarot cards, or psychic readings are true or not, but I like to try them out to see what they say about me. I've had my cards read in Vegas, and what she said never really came true. What she said about me was true to a degree, but she could have just been reading my facial expressions and body language to feed her shit about me. So when I saw the palm reader, I decided to give her a go. I gotta tell you, I was beyond surprised at what she said about me! Most of what she said about me was true, and she said things that not a lot of people know about me. Ill talk about what she said to me now.

1. I'm a hard worker. I don't give 90% or even 100%, I give everything I do 110%. I try to do the best job that I can do, but I don't get recognized for all my hard work. I'm used to it, but lately its been starting to bother and I'm becoming bitter about it. I want to be told that what I'm doing is great and that I'm an essential part of the team dynamic. This is so fucking true! I do work harder than some people in my life and I don't get recognized for it. It is starting to bother me now that I work harder than some people at work, but they get recognized for stupid shit, and I just get a thank you. I know that it shouldn't bother me, but it does bug.

2. The last two years have been difficult for me emotionally and physically, but I'm working hard to get out of the funk I'm in and this is the year of working towards a better me. Next year will be a better year for me. It will take a lot of work this year, but next year I will be happier than I've been. There is something that's keeping me from reaching my true potential and my happiness, and this year I will take baby steps to maximize my true self. I have been in a funk for the last couple years, mainly thanks to my depression and anxiety, I have been taken steps to bettering myself. Ive been on anti depressants and been going to therapy once a month for the last two years. She hit the nail on the board...or whatever the saying is on this one. Ive always been in a yo-yo effect where I take 3 steps forward and 1 step back. I'm happy that I'll finally be free of these demons that I'm battling for so many years. Well, I'm sure I wont be completely free from them, but ill be making a big dent in them.

3. Its hard for me to fall in love. Holy shit she was fucking right about this one too. I dated someone where the relationship didn't work out, but this person still thinks about me and what could have been. We will never work out, and I shouldn't talk to this person, but the relationship affected me. I shouldn't date this year, because I'm trying to work on myself, and if I get into a relationship, I will just think about that person and not myself. I put everyone else before me and I get dragged down to 4th or 5th place in line, but I shouldn't do that anymore. Ive been learning to say NO more and more now, where before I would say YES to everything, even when I didn't want to say yes. People will think I'm being selfish, but that's OK because ill be thinking about myself and in the end it will be better for ME. I  want to fall in love, but I don't know how to fall in love because I never had a true sense of what love should look like. This part was true, because I never had "love role models" in my life. I haven't really seen anyone who were in true love. No one has told me that they love in a romantic sense, so I don't know how to say it and really mean it.

there was a lot more stuff the palm reader said, but I'm slowly forgetting them...lol. She basically said that I will never be hard on money because I'll work hard to get it. I'll be moving out of where I currently live, not because I have to, but because I want to. There will be something going on in July and August at work that will change my life. Someone is talking shit about me in my life and that I should be cautious of them, because they will hurt me morally. There will be two days in June that will very creative days for me. I'm sure there more, but I don't remember lol. Thanks for reading guys this has been the longest actually blog Ive written in a long time that isn't a poem lol.